Ha! I can’t even find my camera to document today’s drawing.
I am changing the rules, by the way. I can’t draw a drawing per day
but I have piles and piles of old drawings and other unfinished artworks.
So, on some days – when I don’t feel like drawing
when I feel like taking a nap
or playing piano
or something else that is incompatible with drawing
I will resurrect an old drawing or finish an old painting.
(In the meantime, I’ll post this picture of an ancestral neighbor’s kitten. I vaguely recall the cat, but not the names or faces of the people who owned him.)
I have always been terrible at follow-through. My ideas burn so brightly
and then die with a quickness. The bigger the idea, the quicker the death, I’ve found.
This is, as ideas go, fairly looming in my mind. It’s a challenge and a renaissance, a thesis and a revival. I am terrified to tell anyone about this project. Once I tell them, they may actually look at this record I’m keeping. And they might see more than they’d like. Or they might love me forever.
I might keep it a secret for a while; Perhaps tell only a select few. I won’t tell my mother, I might tell my brother. My father would not understand. Meaning, he may not know what a blog is and may become frustrated at my attempts to explain.
When I was six, my mother let me quit T-ball mid season. I have quit so many things since then. I don’t blame my mother for my lack of stick-to-it-ness. It may be entirely worthwhile to conscientiously and constantly appraise your pursuits and their value within the context of your life as a whole. However, this sort of indulgent and immediate imagined – mindfulness
obfuscates true mindfulness as it substitutes a perceived clarity in decision – a sometimes delusion clarity, I might add – for willing experience to no particular end. That means the grass ain’t greener on the other side, just you wait and see.
I’m not quitting this – as silly as it may be. At the end of the year, I will have accrued a catalog of approximately 365 pictures and posts. That doesn’t seem so silly to me.
Go Team Go. Oh yeah, I’ll post today’s drawing + commentary with tomorrow’s.