Intelligent Design IN DEED…

It all became quite clear early this morning. After just a moment of sleep, an hour…maybe two…

I woke up and untangled myself from the clean sheets and listened to the sound of sleeping friends rolling over.

I found the most amazing friends…right there on the street…the talented pianist with the sculpted bridges and the dead junkie mother, the wounded warrior (in shelters for two years, with the gentle eyes of the downcast)that knows how to map it all out and make us feel truly safe…

the best thing about it is that we didn’t plan anything…we just followed our instinct…sometimes at the expense of almost everything…and in the propped up shambles of our former frameworks we realized we could still make sense to one another and that – somehow – we were given a bit of guidance in finding exactly what we all need from one another…and the little cracks and gaps in our bodies of knowledge – the different roads that converged into a beautiful design, a grand experiment in hopefulness and new beginnings…

I hope that my family can soon truly embrace that I am happier than I have been in almost a 1/4 of a century…and now it’s time to get to work…to map it out and learn how to play a xylophone…

It will be a good day…here a couple of drawings from the past four days…you see the progression of digression to concession and finally…the sensational design appears…a means for us all to shake off the mistakes of our fathers and the fears of mothers…a map of how I got here…an experiment in points of connectivity and a girl named Faith in WNC…but I am sure there are many such convergences…nine years and millions of driving miles in the telling…

The best thing is…I have friends that walk and talk and are warm and smell like so many of the rooms I have inhabited…and I know that as we talk and laugh and figure and compare, we are somehow repairing our hearts and claiming ourselves…and I can’t wait to meet the people who were, after all, behind me all along…

I love the possibility of a Grand Experiment…

I have figured out exactly what happened (with the absence of some details) and how it explains exactly why…everything will be better for the migratory hearts and watchful eyes, for all the helping hands…

I am so thankful…and patient…and hopeful that very soon the stories will all be shared and
the people
who have been collecting all along
conducting research
bumbling blindly
as if pulled
by
an unseen
thread…

well, I hope we will get to soar a little in the eyes of others as we seem to as reflections of each other…all just starting out…

I have never been anything but hopeful in a hopeless world…and you are not the only ones who have proved yourselves to be wrong…I also have been wrongwrongwrong…this world is full of all sorts of possibility…

so there.

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